I’m six months into the world of motherhood. It all began with a challenging birth to my son, plus additional stresses which I’m sure will heal with more prayer and time. Regardless, my son is the BEST thing that ever happened to me!
I’ve lived my dream life in small and big ways. Yet there is nothing that can explain the emotions of what being a mother is like.
I’ve had crazy highs from performing on stage in huge arenas with high profile artists. Doing a Broadway tour was the most incredible experience among a super talented cast. I’ve toured the world. I’ve worked alongside celebs. To music videos, television, stage, and commercials, you were all fun, exciting, and rewarding. I wanted to be a professional dancer with all my heart and I did it.
Surprisingly nothing compares to this kind of love and passion.
My mother is pretty phenomenal. She has been my mentor my whole life, and now that I’m older my friend. Now having a glimpse of motherhood myself, I give my heart to all mothers who truly love unconditionally and selflessly. Selfless love is a quality that creates more compassion, empathy, harmony, gentleness, and devotion. I admire all of you and you inspire me.
In the performance world you have moments of being “on” for the camera, for the stage, or just because the producer, casting director, or choreographer is in the room. Well mothers don’t get much time to be off as you are always “on”. I laugh quietly to myself as I continue writing this after running to the bedroom to nurse my crying son who just woke up from a nap. Like I said mothers are always “on”.
I have no idea what lies ahead, but I am grateful for the gift of motherhood.
The gift to LOVE under all circumstances and during all emotions. This is the kind of love that makes you stronger than you think is humanly possible, and able to endure any experience that comes your way. Life isn’t the easiest and there are always unexpected obstacles. When fear appears to be the only emotion to experience, I am reminding myself in this moment how much more powerful LOVE is.
True LOVE allows you to let go and let God fill the uncertain spaces.
Elijah is definitely the best thing that has ever happened to me. I’ve learned more about myself and about life in six months than I ever expected. What an incredible life teacher he is! Age is nothing but a number, and teachers do come in all ages and sizes. It’s up to us to notice them.
(Image by Dawn Michelle)