This year has been a whirlwind for so many reasons. I gave birth to a beautiful baby boy last January, and then launched the beginnings of my organic skin care line AZUHA late September. I’ve never worked so hard on no sleep in my life.
I thought that my experience dancing on a promo tour with Lady Gaga was enough to prepare me for any kind of work sleep and/or food deprived. I’ve called that tour the Gaga Saga ever since. We had three hours of sleep at night, were on a flight and in a new city everyday, had at least one show a day, and barely sat down for a meal until we got overseas. That experience was definitely one of the toughest dance jobs I have ever had. But I only danced with her for one month since I was filling in for another dancer. That tour was most likely almost a full year.
Now that I am looking back on 2017, I don’t think I would have made it through if it wasn’t for my faith.
I’ve had so many dark days that I thought I would drown in tears. At the same time I would acknowledge the angelic soul of my son everyday. I couldn’t understand how it was possible to live in such extreme duality of light and dark in the same exact moment.
I’m sharing this because sometimes transparency is the best approach. Social media makes you believe that everyone is doing so much better than you on every aspect of life and it is NOT true. This is truly a deception.
During the holiday season we believe that we shouldn’t have any problems because that is what the holiday music tells us.
Life has many colors and textures. All of these ups and downs are here for a reason. These life lessons make us stronger if we choose victory over defeat.
What I love most about 2017 is that the veil was lifted from my eyes in terms of unhealthy relationships, my purpose in life, and as well as making goals for 2018. There is nothing more powerful than living outside of delusion and seeing the truth no matter how much it hurts. 2017 had shaped me into a fierce mama and a budding entrepreneur. I am so grateful to God.
Today is Christmas Eve, and this time of year has the tendency to make some feel lonely, sad, and/or depressed. Those closest to you do not always bring joy, yet know that you can choose who you spend your holiday with. You can create your own traditions, and live your life to the fullest of your own dreams without compromising that light inside of yourself for others.
The holiday season is a great time for closure while welcoming the new year.
What have you learned about yourself this year? What have you learned about others this year? How have you gotten in the way of your own dreams? How have you allowed others to dictate your life? How can you empower yourself to make 2018 filled with love, creativity, abundance, faith, and joy? How can you let your light shine brighter than you thought imaginable?
I’m sending all of you a big hug and so much love! This platform has really helped me get through one of the toughest times in my life.
Merry Christmas Beauties!
(Image by Dawn Michelle)