I will admit to sometimes having a lot of anxiety around having perfect skin especially being in the performance industry. Technology with airbrushing has us thinking that we are supposed to be poreless and literally flawless all the time. Well we need pores, and flawless isn’t natural. What happened to being perfectly imperfect?
The appearance of my skin sometimes fluctuates from looking pretty good for a few months to just not being as perfect as I feel it should under the circumstances. I’ve been noticing that when an important event or performance approaches, I become extremely conscious of the current state of my skin. The anxiety around having perfect skin for these events/performances creates unnecessary stress.
Constantly focusing on my skin usually has me spending much more time in the mirror inspecting my skin’s progress. Much of this internal drama is time and energy draining. It also can create the unhealthy space for scrutinizing blemishes, and over analyzing my skin in ways that are not uplifting or helpful.
No one inspects our skin with the same critical eye as we do unless trying to book a skin care campaign or wearing a bikini on a job.
That’s just the reality of being under the “microscope” of the industry whether it’s acting, dancing, or modeling. It can truly be a downer. Yet in the real world, no one else spends time looking at our skin with a magnifying glass.
So I decided to give myself a break from scrutinizing my skin in the mirror at home.
There are only two mirrors in my home; one in the bathroom and a tiny one in the hallway. Yesterday after my dance class, I decided to experience the rest of the day with the mirrors literally covered. I put a piece of fabric over the mirror in the bathroom, and covered the tiny hallway mirror with a piece of paper and tape. This obviously is by no means glamorous home decor. Regardless, I noticed a few things happen.
The first thing I noticed is that I instantly felt a sense of relief after covering both mirrors.
I was initially caught off guard by my reaction, yet being aware of how I look when I’m at home isn’t necessary. The next thing I noticed was how quickly I showered after class and got myself together. I’m now wondering how much time I have I wasted at home in the mirror. It’s never been a vanity thing, but more of an obsessive inspection for perfection, most likely the culprit of being under the “microscope” of the performance industry. That obsession is one thing that I’m more than happy to let go of.
Obviously we need mirrors for certain things, yet staying out of the mirror in general can help a lot with anxiety around the appearance of our skin.
I also decided to give myself another break from wearing makeup for awhile, which is usually mascara, eyeliner, and DIY face powder. Sometimes taking a break from skin care routines and makeup can be extremely healing to the skin. I have been weaning myself off of both as much as possible over the past few years.
Much of “perfect” skin anxiety is caused by our own false beliefs which have absolutely nothing to do with reality or what is truly important in our lives.
As this year is coming to a close, I have been thinking more about my 2015 New Year’s resolution. My resolution for 2015 was creating as much freedom as possible in every area of my life. Releasing anxiety around perfectly imperfect skin is a true freedom. No one is perfect, nor should we feel like we have to be.
Our skin has the ability to heal and balance itself especially when we create a healthy environment from the inside out. Watching its progress doesn’t make it go any faster! Have any of you tried to limit your access to mirrors? What was your experience? I’d love to hear your thoughts!
(Image by Dawn Michelle)